Based on my reflections of my physical being 7 weeks ago I would have rated myself a 4. My asthma was way out of control, I was experiencing anxiety attacks more than a few times a week and was having cold or flu like symptoms.  My spiritual well being would have been a 6 because I kept my faith that I would get better someday and I knew my trials were apart of some kind of learning experience I needed.  I would have rated my psychological well being at a 2 at that time. I was going through things I didn't even understand in regards to anxiety and depression and I did not know how to cope with any of it. It's hard to help yourself when you don't understand how or why you are experiencing things you can't control.
Things are much different now. Back then I didn't even want to reflect on rating myself because the results would have depressed me even more. I can rate myself now. I rate my physical well being at a 7, I've been doing my meditation exercises whenever I can, in the car when we are headed somewhere, when I am lieing in bed, when I find myself sitting at the computer overwhelmed with work, I just shut my eyes, take a few deep breaths and silence my mind. My spiritual well-being would rate at a healthy 9. I can't say its perfect but I am in touch with my faith and am more trusting about where my life is headed. My psychological well being is now a 6, I am still trying to find balance in my life but have learned to better control my feelings, stressors and worry through meditation.
I have made progress towards my goals, in all areas. I had no goals for my spiritual, physical and psychological well being. Seven weeks ago I was in a really bad place and could not place goals on where I wanted to be in those areas because I didn't know where I wanted to be nor did I care about where I would be in my spiritual, physical or psychological well being. I wanted to just give up and let life do what it wanted with me. My goals for the past couple of weeks have been to better myself in these areas and I have been doing better.
Through implementing the activities I've learned and practicing repeatedly the exercises I've had to do, I have developed a much greater sense of importance in my well being. It is important for me to be healthy in all areas of my life for my sake and my family's sake. Being able to enjoy my kids is rewarding. I have learned to control my stress a lot better and am enjoying doing activities with the kids instead of dragging myself through the day. It was difficult at first trying to meditate. I can remember very well the feeling I had 9 weeks ago when I first closed my eyes, I was so fidgety I thought it impossible to sit there and silence my mind in any way, shape or form.
Through this course I can help my family learn how to develop loving-kindness, forgiveness and help them calm their minds. My kids are around me all the time and I can see they have picked up on some of my bad habits on how to deal with things and I refuse to let them grow up like that. I am going to implement these exercises as a family activity so they will be able to cope with things and have a healthy life.